There is no word to describe what happened in that moment when I first realized what this meant. The feelings and thoughts will never be forgotten but to describe them in one word,well that would be impossible. I thought that I'd felt every rotten feeling known to mankind but I was oh so wrong. Speechless is what this has left me. Utterly lacking for words. I expect any day for a tornado or hurricane or volcanic eruption,something,anything, to sweep away my family and home. It really can't get much worse.
Don't tell me this doesn't matter. Don't tell me justice will be served one day in the future when God is the judge. It doesn't take away the hell I am in. Humankind has let me down in a way I didn't know existed. This country has left me feeling defeated til I can't even move. There is NO justice in our courts and there are NO lawyers who are in it to do the right thing. Journalism has NO LAWS. School districts and those they employ can do whatever the **** they want regardless of who they hurt in the process, ESPECIALLY innocent children.
THE LAST DAYS?! HELL YES THEY ARE HERE!!!!!! And guess what? I HATE them. I am so unprepared for how evil they are and the range of people that get sucked into the darkness they provide. CHANGE? I wish! HOPE? How can there be? How fitting in these last days to have those two words thrown around. Too bad the change that continues to happen snuffs out any hope for the struggling few trying to make this a better place to be.
Honesty, Integrity, Responsibility, Humility, Charity, oh how we need you!
