After nine long, heartbreaking months of homelessness, among other things I won't mention in this post, we have a house!!! We are all so excited! It is bittersweet- as one of my children mentioned yesterday, " it just doesn't feel like home." No it doesn't and it never really will. Life without a vital member of the family is NEVER the same. We just hope and pray the child support continues to enable us to live in this wonderful new home for years to come. We feel so blessed and know our Heavenly Father is watching over us. We pray continually for our husband/father and son/brother to return to Him again.
Happy house day everyone~a house is blessing you should never take for granted!!
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Friday, July 22, 2011
Thursday, May 27, 2010
"THE" plan
I've been giving a lot of thought to "THE" plan lately. You know, the one where we come here to get a body and all that stuff. It hasn't made sense to me for a while now. Like none of it, at all. So,I think it's time to go back to the beginning. That's right-it's Bible time. I need to know and understand that book of God like no other. Even Isaiah!
I don't know if I'm scared not "knowing" as much as just feeling lost and kinda bummed. It just doesn't work for me like it used to. Realizing that you really are on your own solo journey with only God and His Son, as well as the Holy Spirit.....it's just something I've never had to think about, and leaves me feeling lonely.I was taught to believe in family but now I know that it is just a fairy tale. I am an individual and my salvation does not rest on anyone but me and thankfully my Savior, Jesus Christ. I don't know why the last several months have put me here but I believe there is an answer out there somewhere. Now just if I can find it.......................
Oh and by the way-----mean, selfish, fake people SUCK
I don't know if I'm scared not "knowing" as much as just feeling lost and kinda bummed. It just doesn't work for me like it used to. Realizing that you really are on your own solo journey with only God and His Son, as well as the Holy Spirit.....it's just something I've never had to think about, and leaves me feeling lonely.I was taught to believe in family but now I know that it is just a fairy tale. I am an individual and my salvation does not rest on anyone but me and thankfully my Savior, Jesus Christ. I don't know why the last several months have put me here but I believe there is an answer out there somewhere. Now just if I can find it.......................
Oh and by the way-----mean, selfish, fake people SUCK
Monday, October 12, 2009
Learning
I have decided that school stinks. Although I am glad that I am attending with my husband. Sometimes it is hard to be with him so much but days like today, I am grateful. Math is really not my forte and I have to be honest in saying-it sucks. Especially when you are made to learn math you will NEVER use on the job. Well, unless I want to work in a pharmacy. Pretty sure I don't! Evidently I was unprofessional in class today. I didn't realize being frustrated meant I was negative. Either way the teacher made an example of me. How embarrassing! She is like a few years younger than me! Eight to be exact. Oh the shame;which only made me more upset. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day. Oh wait no it won't. We have a quiz. Luckily it isn't on the math! Oh see I am professional and positive! sigh
I have come to realize what a blessing going to school is. Especially with my spouse. He never really did well in school and going undiagnosed with ADHD didn't help. He has done other schooling since we were married and did well two of the times. I was really concerned with him going this time, since it had to do with health care. I have worked in a care center setting twice as a NA and took some classes in college. I remembered how hard it was but he had my full support. He called up this college and was put in contact with a wonderful woman who encouraged him to bring me to their initial meeting. While we were waiting I was watching a television with videos about the college and the programs they offered. He hadn't decided for sure what he wanted to study but as I sat there I said "Hey what if I do this with you?" I have no idea where that came from, I am still having serious health problems and hadn't even thought of getting a job, little alone going to school. I expected him to laugh but he didn't. He actually got excited. So I did it. I jumped in and here I am. I thought certain things might happen, and they have. The whole comparing thing-can't stand it! But I understood it may happen. What I didn't expect was a genuine happiness for me when I did well.That is priceless! He is doing well and I think we have both been amazed! When things are meant to happen then they do~they may be unexplainable but you know what it means. Blessings are abundant even if you feel unworthy to receive them. In His eyes we all are children of worth regardless of our stumblings. We are His priceless treasures.
I have come to realize what a blessing going to school is. Especially with my spouse. He never really did well in school and going undiagnosed with ADHD didn't help. He has done other schooling since we were married and did well two of the times. I was really concerned with him going this time, since it had to do with health care. I have worked in a care center setting twice as a NA and took some classes in college. I remembered how hard it was but he had my full support. He called up this college and was put in contact with a wonderful woman who encouraged him to bring me to their initial meeting. While we were waiting I was watching a television with videos about the college and the programs they offered. He hadn't decided for sure what he wanted to study but as I sat there I said "Hey what if I do this with you?" I have no idea where that came from, I am still having serious health problems and hadn't even thought of getting a job, little alone going to school. I expected him to laugh but he didn't. He actually got excited. So I did it. I jumped in and here I am. I thought certain things might happen, and they have. The whole comparing thing-can't stand it! But I understood it may happen. What I didn't expect was a genuine happiness for me when I did well.That is priceless! He is doing well and I think we have both been amazed! When things are meant to happen then they do~they may be unexplainable but you know what it means. Blessings are abundant even if you feel unworthy to receive them. In His eyes we all are children of worth regardless of our stumblings. We are His priceless treasures.
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